I don't understand

I don't understand Lyrics

i retreat
by myself at the back of my brain
i cannot see
what You're showing me through this pain
i have found
that i have found
nothing for so long

Chorus
i don't understand
i don't need to
i know You've a plan
You will see through
it is in Your hands
i believe You

i say goodbye
i leave my loved ones far behind
i'm asking
why is this is the story of my life
i have found
that i have found
nothing for so long

Chorus

i was only wondering
i've been trying to understand
i know there is more
so much more than i can see

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